i am an eavesdropper
not of conversations, but of action
does that make any sense?
i watch people like they are on display
but not in any judgmental way
i have this fascination for them that i cannot quite explain
their interactions intrigue me
the humanness of it all
all of the things i get innately floating around in all that i will never understand
i see couples where ever i go
leaning on each other with arms intertwined
hands in each other's back pockets
it makes me ache with wonder and curiosity and sadness
and i just stare and try not to appear blatant
to keep them behaving naturally while i try to take it all in and figure it all out
i see guys take off their hoodies and give them to girls regardless of the weather
it isn't about the cold. not really.
and it makes me wonder about how the rules change when people form that sort of bond
it makes me wonder about ownership, i guess.
of things, of course, not people.
there is a lot of sharing involved.
shared space, shared things, shared time, shared feelings
a slow redistribution of souls until they inhabit the same spaces simultaneously
mostly i wonder if they are happy...if anyone ever really is.
they look happy, but one can never be sure. or i can't, at least.
i hope they are.
God, i really do.