I have lived in the past
In the dark and the light
I know good and bad
Black and white
But a man’s love I do not know
Does it exist and is it real?
Do you see stars when you walk around?
Do you feel butterfly’s in your stomach?
Or do you get sick that you don’t want to eat?
I do not know I have never fallen in love
In the shadows I search for love
But I try to stay away, to search in vain
It might be the thought of hurting my soul
Or possibly getting lost in a murky space
My friends have cried for the one they love
I have felt their pain right close to home
I’ll rather not love, I'll rather not mourn
I’ll rather stand underneath the clouds to feel the rain falling down
But then I ask, what’s life without love?
Is it lonely and gloomy?
Or blissful and sunny?
Curiosity still exists
And temptation is always there
Yet, I still refuse to let myself go
To surrender to that pain
To limit myself
I just simply ride the magical trains
They take me through a road that has no end
I will rather live life one day at a time
In a small world full of flowers and rain
Where I laugh all day long
And sing with the birds
No love, no pain
I merely learn to live through letters and words
Creating a fantasy that goes beyond love
Therefore, do I really want to love?