I have these warm moist tears running down my cheeks
Distance in joy, near in defeat
Pain throbbing throughout my bones
Fear slithering through my blood
isolation, deprived
From truth
Feelings are all I see
… The lies that they speak to me
Unknowingly I believe
I filter my deception within my mind
Crushing the thoughts with my emotions
Quietly shrieking in the background of me
Sober thoughts suddenly penetrates my mind
I draw closer to the heart of rejection
, what exactly do I seek?
Perfection, Joy, Approval ?
All the above ?
I’m not sure for my mind is wavering
And my heart untrustworthy
I’m lost in the wilderness hoping
That someone come and finds me
…I search and search for the missing puzzle piece
That would perfectly define me …