dear past me
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dear past me,
it's been tough
you've endured so much pain
for one so young
it sounds cliche
but you and i both know that it's true
you've dealt with a lot
a lot of anxiety
a lot of deployments
a lot of embarrassments
a lot of stress
and on top of all of this
you're dealing with an eating disorder
and it's getting bad
you don't think so yet
but trust me
you'll regret this later
now tell me,
does the weight loss make you feel better about yourself?
are you happier?
no
you know you aren't happier
you know something's off
this isn't healthy
don't let this spiral
pull up
just like an airplane
pull yourself out of this
and even though you'll gain back all of that weight
and even though you'll have to go through therapy
and even though you'll have to go through a lot of pain
and even though you'll think it's time to quit
never quit on yourself
your life is worth it
our life is worth it
there is help out there for you
there are people who care
there are people who are dealing with the same problems you are
find those people
befriend those people
support and be supported by those people
you're doing well
staying strong doesn't mean you have to bottle it all up
staying strong means you know when it's too much
staying strong means remembering that you can do it
give it time
you'll do fine
with love,
future you