A "Dear John" letter to my depression
To my depression:
I spent too long loving you
and being held hostage to the
warmth you’d radiate
because I was always so cold
but you made even loneliness
feel friendly.
Last winter was the worst for us,
remember how we were
attached at the hip?
It’d snow out
and the night would fall faster
than I could blink
and I’d spend the day in bed
with you by my side
school and responsibilities be damned.
I think that’s when I realized how toxic you are
and that I can’t spend my life
with us being two halves
of the same broken soul.
I’m glued together now,
that’s why I haven’t answered your calls --
because if I give in to you
the glue holding me together will melt
and I’ll end up back in pieces.
but I’ve met someone new.
she is bright and beautiful
and everything I wanted to have,
wanted to be
for so many years
she’s taught me how to live life
and instead of hiding
in the shadows of what I could have
I’m living in the light
of what I am
in case you haven’t noticed by now,
this is me
breaking up
with you
instead of you
breaking me down