Dear Jay,

 

It’s been awhile.

These last few years have been really hard

I’m still trying to rap my head around you being gone.

It feels so weird.

I’m still furious with the woman who hit your car.

Just thinking about it makes me cringe.

Everyday there are questions that go throughout my mind.

Why did it have to be you?

Why that night?

What was she thinking?

These are questions that I personally can’t answer.

Questions that I will most likely always have.

 

Since you’ve been gone I haven’t had the best relationship with a certain side of the family.

I always feel awkward around him.

I don’t know why.

Maybe because I was closer than you than him.

Same thing with dad.

He met someone else and just left me.

He has a new family, new wife and new son.

I hardly even talk to him now.

He seems happy.

But I’m not.

I feel abandoned by that one person I thought never would.

 

 

I miss you.

I wish I could have one more day with you.

It’s not fair.

I lost my best friend to soon.

I need that one day.

I need to hear your voice.

The calmness that you have.

I love you bubba.

I know that one day I will see you again.

 

Love,

Your dear baby sister, Kayla