Dear God
Dear God
I don’t understand
why you would leave me.
I prayed,
my God, I prayed so hard,
I followed your rules,
I preached your word,
and yet--
Look where it got me,
God,
why did you leave me?
I remember thinking
I’m slipping,
my God, I’m slipping so quickly,
save me save me please please--
Did you hear me, God?
Did you watch
my sleepless nights
and fears made of black?
Did you watch
as God turned into god
and You turned into you?
I feel--
same.
There is a strange comfort in knowing
I hold myself in my own hands.