Curtain
Who am I when nobody sees?
When the wall crumbles what will you see?
Who am I when no one is watching?
What will you hear when I stop talking?
I am silly when nobody sees.
I make myself laugh and my own flaws I tease.
I am a dork when no one is watching.
When it’s only to myself that I’m talking.
I am serious when nobody sees.
I’m driven and no nonsense with no one to please.
I am committed when no one looks.
Whether to people or to my books.
I am afraid when no one is watching.
Shaking and stressing and feeling like falling.
I am alone when nobody sees me.
Feeling empty inside with no one to help me.
I am hurt when no one can see.
Scars run so deep that healing’s unlikely.
I am sad when nobody looks.
Crying inside while smiling for looks.
I am determined when no one notices.
Fighting for life and what I know the truth is.
I am loud when no one can hear me.
Opinions are strong when held deep inside me.
I am lost when I’m all alone.
Confused and bewildered and so far from home.
I am destroyed when no one is looking.
Picking up pieces and holding in crying
I am important when no one else knows.
I matter and am needed and I run the show.
I’m independent when no one can see.
I get along just fine with only me.
I am lonely when nobody looks.
Betrayed and forgotten, left and mistook.
I am me when no one is looking.
I am prepared when nobody sees.
I know what I’m doing and I do it for me.
I am a real person with real problems and urgings.
I’m not always happy and I’m not always nice.
I’m not always laughing and I don’t always try.
I am smart when no one is watching.
Smarter than most and not always trying.
I am strong when nobody sees me.
I can hold myself up even when hurting.
I am me when no one is watching.
Unapologetic, trustworthy, trusting.
Desperate, pushy, sarcastic, loyal
Fierce, clever, strong and beautiful.
I am me when the curtain’s drawn back.
And I will be okay and I won’t turn back.