They always say love yourself first,
other wise, you'll end up hurt.
But I'm tellin' you I loved me before.
It some how got out of hand and I started loving you more...
Now I know that kind of stuff isn't good for mental health.
But everytime I talked to you I would lose my breath.
So just because I loved you more, I would cry everynight until I just started changin' the beauty that
God had devised.
Just because I thought you were one of a kind,
I started changing me, I started being the girl I never wanted to be.
Offering my body in exchange for conversation.
Pretending that doing sexual things was just giving into temptation
But in reality I didn't want to do it at all.
I was offerin' sex to stall and give me time to make you fall...again.
It was something I didn't understand
When I had you , I didn't want you .
But when you left, I needed you
When I was with you , I decieved you.
When you showed me signs of givng up, I should've believed you.
My story became I loved me, but I loved you more, now it's time for me to close that door.
So while they think my smile is honest,it's not because I'm really hurtin'
- Words sincerely spoken by the young woman behind the curtain.