"Broken and Lost"

Location

60628
United States
41° 41' 11.3316" N, 87° 37' 42.636" W

Even though I've run it through my mind over and over again
I find it damn near impossible to ignore the way I feel within
There's the girl I love it's weird because I can't shake the feeling
But the worst part is its not shared
And though we were once one
Paired together like a Bluetooth device to a cell phone
She dropped me for the newer model
It's a never ending love cycle
I fall hard then crash just the same
I shame and attack myself
My own self wealth? Zero
I'm not here to rhyme and play games
Just here to state my claim, and exit
Like I did from her heart so many years ago.
I didn't walk by choice see
She packed my bags and said no words
To this day I have no answer, why.
Why did you leave me half a man?
Half of who I am is you but you don't want me
Broken hearts, broken dreams, shattered promises
Who am I?
Am I me without you? Do I go on?
I must. I have to.
See for what you didn't know..
My time here is limited.
I tried to find love before my expiration date, but its too close now
And while I say my goodbyes you're nowhere to be found, but in my heart
I love you is what I say with my last breath
I float on into the darkness
Without you by my side the journey is just lonely.
Traveling through the abyss of my mind I can see you.
I call your name but you don't hear me
Your choice to ignore my calls
As I float on I can see the future and what you've left me to be
As you succeed, I fail.
I make mistakes and derail my life off the path I once took
All for a broken heart.
Love is insane, just as easily as it can send you to cloud 9, it can feel like hell.
That's where you sent me.
That's where you left me.
In pieces, broken like shattered glass.
You left me broken.
Broken and vulnerable, I expose myself to more suffering, at my loss of you.
This darkness is no fun, but my lighthouse on the coast has left me out at sea.
The love of my life has left me stranded, broken, and alone.

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