Behind the Smile

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Behind the smile I am a needy person. Wanting, waiting, impatiently wanting someone's attention. I need someone to be there to comfort me whenever. I need someone to listen to my rants. I need people to understand my dreams, my wants, what i love. Behind the smile i am lost. I have no idea who to be, what to be, what my future holds is far from me. I don't know what to do with my self. I don't know what I want to be in the future. I am falling behind. Behind the smile nobody knows what I am thinking. No even I know what I am thinking. So many things I want to be but not know where to start is my real trouble. I want to be a drummer, a Manga artist, a band member, a therapist, someone everyone knows but I have no idea how to get there. Behind the smile I am sad. Sometimes I feel worthless and other times I feel like the greatest human being ever. Sometimes I love myself and other times I hate my self. Behind the smile I have no idea who I am. 

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