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Because You Loved Me
You called to ask me how I was today
Though the last time we talked I was breaking your heart.
You were yelling and you were crying and you said I was to blame.
Everything I did hit you and knocked you down you said
3 years with you
My sheer presence was something you said you couldn’t recover from
You said you hoped I would feel the pain I caused you-
That it was the only way- because you loved me, I could be better.
Because you loved me I deserved that pain too
Because you loved me you said you wouldn’t let me go
But because you loved me, you’d never forget to remind me how sad I made you
Because you loved me it was your duty to show me my wrongs.
Because you loved me you said “I could never be happy without you- you are my world”
I said, because I loved you, I couldn’t be your whole world.
And, because you loved me, you started to yell and scream
Because that is how you love.
And, because you really loved me, you tell me how I used to be.
You built up fantasies of some madonna dressed in white,
a fantasy of a goddess whom you aspired me to be.
Because you loved me, you built that image, and when it was corrupted-
you exploded into constant jealousy, dependency, and fear.
But because I loved you- I let you.
I let you yell and scream and because that is how we love, and I just sat and thought
“I will brave this because this is how I know he loves me”
And when I know this is over
When I know, because I love you, this had to end,
I let you tell me every wrong I have ever done
I let you wish my pain be great
I let you curse my name
I let you call me “bitch” and “cunt” and “whore”
I let you throw everything you’ve got at me.
Because I know this is how you love me.
And, because I love you, I sit there and take it.
I let you deflect any wrongs or responsibilities
I let you ignore every name, every bruise, every mental manipulation you have
Inflicted.
And today, when you called to ask how I was feeling
"I was free I was happy I was changed"
I realized I no longer wanted you to love me
Leaving you made me realize
I wanted to love me.
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