The battle

Location

Shot

Heart pounding lungs burning

Smoke fills the air the sounds of guns and explosions all around

Senses heightened, looking to kill

The fight has just begun

RPG’s fly, machine guns rattle

Splash

The end is coming in, scanning watching those fighting me

Waiting to not see them again to adjust to kill

The view to a kill, binoculars eyes and mind

Kill, that’s what I do, I am the eyes of death

Burst

The round lands exploding, smoke follows

Adjust to the right add range, right hand on the button

Voice trembling, heart pounding in my throat

Wanting to feel it

Shot

The guns keep firing, the enemy doesn’t know

Firing to hope they don’t realize it yet

Keep them in place, view them not as a human

They are not people, they are a number on a tally

Splash

Their doom is incoming, mocking them we fire

The distance is not very far, close to us all

The shadows of the day are not to be know

The smells of the battle excite me

Burst

Flame, smoke and shrapnel, flying through the air

The target is hit, slowly enemy fire slows, we know I know

They are there, wounded and dying

They still fire, trying to take my life before I can finish them

Fire For Effect

The enemy doesn’t know my plan

White smoke to burn them, maim and not kill, not yet

They need to know, I am their nightmare

Shot

I know it is coming first, 5000 degrees incoming to burn

White Phosphorous, the killer smoke is going to land not on, but behind

The wind will help, they will be alive for this, and I know it

Planned in my head, to give me excitement

Am I human, the thought is In my mind now

Rounds complete

I am not a human, I am a machine designed to kill

The enemy fire is increasing, shooting my rifle to keep them down

Heart pounding, pain is going to make them unrecognizable

A bounty is already on my head, hunted by the enemy

They know who I am, they know I do this and destroy with no remorse

Splash

They fire more, trying to kill my friends, those who I fight with

I know it is coming now, the fire smoke not to be used like this

They never question me, Rockets fire to hold them down

Only a few hundred meters away, already hearing their pain consumed screams

Burst

The smoke lands, delay the explosive rounds, the second smoke lands

The wind takes over the burning smoke covers them

Screams, gunfire from the enemy stops, Screams of excruciating pain

Waiting my order White phosphorous, and then delay High Explosive

They burn, dying from skin melting, burning their lungs

Screams subside, they must die like this, I hate them

I did this for me, to feel the pleasure inside due to killing

Burst

High explosive impact, they are already dead

Burned and maimed, killed slaughtered, I laugh at them

Thinking they will do it again and so will I, killing slowly to make them know

Fear them, do not stay and fight, we will and have done this

Damage assessment

Moving to the enemy position, moving slowly, ready to kill any who challenge me

Were not far from them now the smell of burning human flesh fills the air

The smell I never wanted to have in my mind and know what it was

We come upon them five dead enemy, they do not look human

Blackened flesh, lips gone, white teeth, no ears eyes empty

They were alive, finding photos un-burnt under them they were humans they had families and lives, They look foreign alien like what is this

I caused this I burned them alive, Body parts strewn around

What did I do why am I not a human?

Home

I close my eyes when I get home from war the dreams are there vivid and horrible

There is no war but I close my eyes and stay inside my head, a battle rages

The body parts, blood and burnt bodies all caused by me haunt me

The battle rages in my head, gunfire, explosions, and smells you should never smell

It rages inside me, I do not speak of it I fear those I love will not look at me

I turned to drugs, I turned to alcohol, they did not help, and they made it worse

I turn away from those things, I turn to God I beg and plead to just have it end

To end the battles I relive every day

Help

I get help, I start to talk, I seek it I want to know myself again

I search for answers and people who will support and help me

Family is there, wife parents and friends listen and support

The days get better and I feel it, the help is changing me, opening my mind

This life is what I have, I accept this and fight for more

A new Battle waits

The battle for me

 

 

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