my throat- dry
my eyes- watery
my armpits- sweaty (but not smelly)
my heart- beating- rapidy
their eyes- looking right at me.
flashbacks of all the times i spoke-
and paused too long in fear
and spoke too quickly
and rushed through
but not this time. i signed up for this-
every shy person's worst fear-
a public speaking course.
i prepped. i practiced. i rehearsed.
my mirror knew my speech better than i did
my arms- relaxed
my heart- beat slowed
i was back home, in my bathroom, staring in my mirror
i took a deep breath
and i did it.
just as if no one was there.
just as if no one was watching.
the audience was never stopping me- i was.