Dear Alzheimers

 

How dare you? How could you?

Take a beautiful woman full of youth, strength, and beauty

And eat away at her until she was nothing

Alzheimers you have stolen the most beautiful person in my life

She was selfless

Always giving, never taking

She had battled cancer and survived only to fall prey to you

How could you?

 

She had a family one that thought the world of her and she them

One that had to watch her struggling to remember their very names

Where were you? Were you there? As she slowly sunk into the whole

The whole that you dragged her down into

Where she couldn’t read, talk, or walk

That big black pit of forgetting

Did you like to see that?

Did you watch her slip away and me along with her

You stole her life yes but not just hers.

You stole mine and my mother’s with it

 

Did you watch her forget how to walk and continue to fall

Were you there on the Fourth of July?

I ran downstairs after hearing my mother scream

She was crying in the kitchen because of what you had done

Did you go to the hospital with her?

Ten years old and determined to be your mother’s rock

Did you miss vacations and lose sleep over her losing her life when she was still alive?

 

No you weren’t there, you didn’t see

You didn’t watch my family get destroyed from the inside out

You didn’t have to watch your beloved grandmother eventually lose her life to you

You aren’t here

You don’t have to avoid looking into your mothers eyes on every birthday or death day

For fear of breaking down yourself.

You don’t watch the tears streak your mother’s cheeks as she rushes off to the bathroom

You don’t hear her crying out saying she misses her mother.

You don’t feel your heart break for her every time she does

And you don’t know how much it hurts to know there is nothing you can do!

No you aren’t here for the pain, the aftermath

You are only here to take

 

You will be there to collect my mother when it starts to be her time

You will be there ready to steal her life as you have stolen countless before her

 You will take her and drag her screaming and crying down that big black whole of forgetting

You will watch us all powerless try and save her

You will watch her forget how to read, to walk, and to eat

And you will still continue to take

 

But you won’t take me

At least not easily

If you take me it will be after a full on war that will never end with surrender

I will train all my life so you cannot take me

I will not allow my family to suffer because you have stolen me

I will fight, and I will fight for my grandmother and mother

For they were brave and strong willed

But they raised me to be even a better warrior then them

You will not take me

I am not yours

I never will be

For I am my own

 

From

Your Future Foe