Wake up, roll out of bed
Hit the floor, legs like lead
Emotions are weighing me down
Dawn my mask to cover my frown
My mask of Immaturity
My mask gives me security
My mask preventing me to breathe
What is The Alternative?
And with this mask comes a price
One I've paid more than twice
A danger of being misunderstood
Extending back to childhood
Under this mask I may weep
It only protects me surface deep
I need to hold back just a little longer
But what is The Alternative?
For something I can't stop thinking about
It's always so hard to make it out
It would be easy to ask "what's wrong with me?"
But these problems I face are summed to three
I worry about every outcome
And bottle it up until I'm numb
Till the emotions inside can no longer hide
I'm scared of The Alternative.
These feelings, this method
It's not unique
Keep it together
You're nothing special
They left, they're gone
You had your chance
How do expect respect if you always suspect
Your mask is slipping don't let it slip
You're feelings mean nothing
So just stop thinking
None of it matters
Because you can't get hurt again.
Go home, roll into bed
Close my eyes, legs are dead
Remove my mask, but where's my frown?
I cannot find it as I look around
In its place, on my face, a smile
For once, I hope that it stays a while
And even though it may hurt in the end,
The Alternative is better than pretend