Honestly, I fell for you;
I fell for you hard, like nothing else mattered.
You were on my mind day and night and everything in between;
You were wise and unique in a way I couldn’t comprehend.
My curiosity pulled me in as you talked to people I knew I’d never know;
My love for school and adventure diminished as you became my friend;
You made me feel as if it would never end, like you actually cared.
But, you didn’t, you never could;
I was nothing and you knew it.
You saw that I was clumsy and ugly and annoying;
I was empty with no value or motive.
But, I had something.
I had love and passion in my heart;
I had strength, maybe not in body, but in soul;
I had something more than you could ever keep;
I had a mind that you could never reach,
But you could seep through every time I peek.
You were right, I’m nothing but a creep.
You moved on as if you never knew;
The girl who loved you so; you had no clue.
Our friendship ended without a bang;
Maybe this act was all part of a play.
I hate you so, yet never could;
I love you so, but why, oh no.
You may not think of me anymore,
But I think of you forevermore.
I hear your voice in the night;
A siren call I couldn’t fight,
Yet you were nothing too.
You may have smiled in that broken shell;
You may seem happy, when I have fell;
I may hate you, but don’t go to hell
Because this ain’t over and you know as well.
I see that look behind your eyes in class;
I see that frown I never thought you’d cast;
I see the way you looked so tired each day;
I see the way you care about me, although you’ll never say.
You look at me like I am brand new, like a dream you never recognized;
You saw the light the hid behind my eyes, and the soul which I thought you despised;
But, no, this ain’t over yet, from what I see inside.
Here I am, safe and strong;
Here I was, all along
Yet, you could never see;
You’re not the one who set me free.
Because I am me, and you are you;
That’s how you broke my heart in two.
But, I dusted the sorrow from my heart;
I am trying to make a new start.
I fight every day to stop the tears;
Heartbreak is no longer on my list of fears.
I know now, I ain’t over yet.