Maybe I Don't Want to Smile
"You should smile more," he says
I remain silent, now on edge, awakened
I pray my silence will be matched in return
Unfortunately for me, I am quite mistaken
"C'mon sweetie, why don't you smile for me?"
He walks up to me, I feel heat in my face
I walk on, both angry and afraid
I keep my silence, but he keeps my pace
He doesn't speak for a while, but I'm terrified inside
His fingers are busy, "casually" brushing my thigh repeatedly
I'm scared to run and I'm scared to stay
All I can do is keep walking, though defeatedly
We walk on for two blocks before he speaks again
This time it is to mutter "Stop, where are you going my friend?"
I don't let myself speak, afraid of his reply and reaction
I soon reach my destination, immediately running inside
Full of busy people, my witnesses
Now in safety, I cried
For some this seems normal, maybe even every day
But I am five foot two, eighteen, and I was very frightened
A man far older than I, brushing up against me
Trying to touch me as my face whitened
He stared at me, followed me, wouldn't leave me alone
Why is this not emphasized in the problems that are shown
I came into full realization this year of the fear girls face
About being groped, raped, or taken without a trace
There is a fear attached to catcalling, and rightfully so
But some people have started thinking it's just a show
We're putting our girls into dangerous places
Where men begin their chase by critiquing our faces
I've changed a lot this year since that day
And I refuse to stop fighting until these fears are taken away
We cannot CANNOT let this continue, I fear it
And I will advocate for women until everyone hears it