you,

said that you loved me

you told me you would always be there

you said you cared.

i am so tired of trying to make you be there mom

you have put me through so much hell i cant even fully explain my feeling of you

you have always told me that you wouldent ever leave me and that you would always love me

but u continuasly hurt me

why do i even try

is what i say to myself

you give me no reason to do so mom

all i have ever wanted was for you to be here in my life

but that never works out the way i planned

mom i love you with all my heart but i need to be honest with myself

i care so much for you but i am holding myself back every time for you mom

i love you and i want you to be in my life

but i am done trying so hard to make you relize

i am not that bad

i know i have made so many mistakes

and i own up to them all

i am sorry if some of these things that i am saying is harsh

but what i am saying is my true feelings coming from my heart

i am tired of hurting and thinking every thing i do is wrong

mom i love you but i am done.......

by moneaka