I Choose
I am in a world
Filled with boys and girls.
So tell me why I feel so alone?
Each day that goes by
Just feels the same.
Same routine every day.
I feel like a prisoner
Surrounded by abuse.
It’s taught me to choose
Passive aggressiveness as the safe route.
To avoid a fight, but I can’t avoid the shouts
Screaming in my head.
I want to speak, but I choose silence instead.
I have so many things I need to stay.
That I can’t even think of where to begin.
But I can try a little every day.
My life is full of so many mistakes.
But I keep my high expectations to win.
So because I’m strong and my optimism lives on
The abuse doesn't stop me.
Like Maya said resiliency wins and still I rise and move on.
I have dreams and aspirations after all.
So people can say what they want and try to hurt me.
But I won’t let their insecurities affect me.
My life was given to me and no one else.
You controlled my life for too long.
I will break out of this prison cell
Smashing it down like King Kong.
I’m done with unrequited love.
I’m human and equal to you.
I deserve love, respect, and making my priorities first.
I know my self-worth.
That you tried to destroyed.
Playing me like I was a toy.
But I won’t be played with
I’ll be the player.
So I’ll choose to keep playing the game of life,
And I’ll live for the beautiful day where I roll the dice to find my lucky number.