Finding Me
People constantly opening.People constantly closing.
You don’t understand it do you? I am struggling to find my identity.
My heart is overwhelmed by my head however, they were once in serenity.
I used to feel content with myself even if all of the puzzles pieces weren’t put together.
Now with my puzzle pieced together, I don’t feel content with myself, perhaps this is a bellwether.
No matter how many “prestigious” awards I earn, I don’t feel gratified.
No matter how much I try to fit in I am always pushed aside.
Beneath this veil of nerdiness, I have a broken heart, and I feel my limits becoming more eminent.
I am slipping from this pinnacle of the mental Mount Everest.
As I turn back to reminisce or remember the basic things, it takes me a while to process.
My soul is being trapped in this dungeon of skin and bones, manipulated for the pleasures of my mind.
The mind is simultaneously fluorescent, and dark, like a Ying-Yang relationship, causing all of my life’s problems
Soul…is…gradually being wrought to make computations and spew out information, not to be a true person.
I am fading into obscurity under this dark masquerade of a void.
The grand scheme of things doesn’t care a thing about what I am and what I will amount to.
After all, God has to influence 7,000,000,000 other people, like they are voodoo.In the sands of time, I probably will not create an impact at all.
I will not even be the last entity to live in this Universe, just Black Holes, sucking in the whole vacuum of space to cause nothingness, and our worlds will fall.
Darkness will always be victorious, as the Universe began with it too.
I race against time, but I will never win.Time is unique as it is a meticulous but a destructive yin.
The time bomb is ticking. And tocking. I am trapped in this ego-driven mind of mine. I am drowning in the oceans of enigma in this Universe.
Will I ever be a success, or just an egotistical braggart who will be recycled into another loser with a curse?

