Dear Tyson,

It is May 1, 2017.

I don’t know what it is

About you that has me.

Has me like no one ever has.

I can’t make you feel

The way I feel for you.

Though I wish I could.  

Why couldn’t this work?

We would’ve been great

I feel it.

At least I felt it.

I feel it less every day.

And that hurts.

This is one of the hardest things I’ve had to do.

But I have to do it.

I have to let you go.

As the tears consume me,

Just please know

That I love you.

I fell in love with you,

And I wish there was a way to fall out of love.

Because loving someone who doesn’t love you back…

Is the worst type of pain there is.

So how do I get over that?

It doesn’t matter when we met

Or how much time we spent together.

Along the way, I fell in love.

Nothing can define

Or measure love.

My love is true

And it is real.

For now,

I am overwhelmed by my tears and sadness,

But I will survive this heartbreak...

One day at a time. 

 

It is December 16,2017.

Do I love you?

Yes.

No.

Maybe.

I honestly don’t know.

You were my first love,

And for that I will always love you in a way.

I will never forget you.

Although you caused me pain the majority of our time together,

I have never been happier in my life, than when I was with you.

I can only hope and dream…

That I will find someone who made me feel the way you did.

I have learned and grown so much since you broke my heart.

I am no longer crippled by my love for you.

I told myself I would get over you,

Although I wasn’t sure when that would ever happen.

I did it.

I survived the excruciating, yet inevitable heartbreak.

This letter is to you, Tyson.

Because you never knew how much you were loved,

And how much your simple attention and kindness to me,

Has made such an impact on my life.

 

Sincerely,

Sarah Zarra