I came to my senses when I accepted you Jesus, 

Jesus, you saved my life because you loved me from the start. 

I was already in your mind; you created me in your sight, and you said I was made very beautifully as a good piece of art. 

I accept, I was dumb when I had denied your kind heart.  

It’s beyond my understanding when you tell me, love your enemies, bless does who hate you. 

But of course, my thoughts are nothing compared to your thoughts God, your thoughts are higher than my thoughts.  

To whom can I compare you too, if there is no one like you except for Jesus who is your visible image?  

The visible image of the invisible God.  

But listen here child, rejoice, bless and be glad. A reward awaits for those who obey my commands.  

For those who take their cross and leave their past behind 

 

I thought,I thought I could handle my life without you God, but I discover I was wrong.  

I refused your counsel and sinned against you. 

Where was the fear for You that I once had?  

There was no longer respect for who you are. HOLY, HOLY, HOLY your angels proclaimed day and night  

Trying to hide my sin I knew deep inside that there has never been or will be anything hidden from your sight because you are Omniscient and Omnipresent, knowing everything and being everywhere.  

Yes, I sin, it shouldn’t be a surprise, I have a sinful nature so does everyone else, that wanting to do good, I end up doing wrong.  

This is a constant fight.  

Letting days pass by without coming to my knees confessing my sin and repenting with a true heart, my faith became to diminish slowly by slowly.  

I thought to myself who am I?  

When I have been taught my identity is in Christ.  

You stopped being my hiding place, where I could take refuge and cry of felling and believe I was nothing at all, in my life you were just someone who was on the side when I needed help to get out of my difficult circumstance.  

Miserable was I, when I discarded your many calls to come back.  

I had lost your favor God, because I followed my own path. My own law. 

I thought I was my own god, deciding over my life. This was a false true. I am not the owner of my own life.  

My life belongs to you, because you formed me in my mother's womb.  

Yet in these moments of isolation, I still wanted to hear your voice, such as when my passion for you was fervent.  

Every night when I would go to sleep, I would begin to think, I was just wasting time, rebelling against you God.  

Thankfully your grace reached me, an undeserving gift you gave to me. Your Son that was prophesied by the prophet Isaiah, a messenger who feared you God, and said “ a child will be born unto to us a Son is given; and the government will be upon His shoulder, and his name will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father. Prince of Peace.  

Jesus is this child! The Son of God, the Savior, and Lord of All! 

He is the perfect sacrifice for our debt with God, who chose to give his life for a sinner like me.  God was pleased with his sacrifice because he gave his life for the salvation of many.  

What I had to do is believe in him as my one and only savior. 

From that point on to now I am being transformed to being more like Jesus.  

This process is forever until I come to His presence.  

I am no longer a slave to sin because Jesus has broken my chains away.  

A new heart was put in me, a heart sensible to your voice.  

When the Holy Spirit speaks to me to exhort, teach, encourage I want to listen and live by it. 

No more, a heart of stone. I dispose myself to serve you Lord, I am here for a purpose which is to Love you and show others Your love because you gave love and You are Love.  

 

Abril, thank you God.