You
To the person that I learned to forgive
Dear you,
You.
You were the one who first introduced me to the bitter taste of coffee
Showed me how to drink just enough to remember your sea green eyes in the moonlight
I still remember the nights we stayed up until four in the morning because we were both insomniacs with a love for the night
That's when everyone and everything is most vulnerable isn't it?
But of course, you know that
You knew, even then, that you were intoxicating
I could, and did get drunk off your endless words, your empty promises
Before you all I had known were the leaving and the betrayals
I had hoped you were different
And you were
Like me,
except, not like me at all
Stronger
Better
You did not need me to keep you afloat
But I needed you, like a drowning victim in the currents of a storm
Gasping
Desperate
Reaching
So I held I for dear life, hoping you would let me stay afloat in the waves of an ocean so immense
it could have been my whole universe
Instead
You pushed me off
Maybe you knew that it was all for the best
That I would become stronger because of it
Learn to love myself enough to save myself
Maybe you didn't
But either way
Thank you
Not for showing me the way
But for pushing me off the wrong one