man this month

has just slipped through my fingers

i kept running and running and working harder

and where has it gotten me but

right back where i started

some B-list girl in an A-list body,

not wanted by nobody 

i wanted 

anyway

i’ll just plaster on a smile and party

with my friends till 

i saw her, hair wild, cheeks glowing,

knocked out in the hallway, now i can’t forget it

now i can’t get away

we got problems

hope my parents won’t know what we been doing

if i tell them what i’m feeling

would they still love me?

day after day

we dig up my future at the dinner table

but we come up empty handed 

everytime

i don’t think

it’s all as grand as it’s made out to be

screw optimists, 

second chances,

ain’t got no patience for those things

don’t give a crap anymore 

for your emotional wellbeing

when your ex hurt you so bad

but you still really want her

that girl be wildin’

she never loved you enough

so why you still trying

when it don’t matter to her

you might think you got time

but it just slips through your fingers.