It’s been only a while that i have known you.

But more years have passed our faces than have passed my great grandmother’s eyes in her dying hours

You are more than i've ever expected i could ever know.

You are more than i've ever thought was possible for me.

 

The thought of your breath makes me breathe easier.

your mind perplexes my own, and i am wrapped around it

Spinning, uncontrollably, spinning,

I never want to let go, Please never, let me let go.

 

When i told you my fear of commitment, it’s not to be confused with commitment issues.

I am not unfaithful. I am the most committed person you will ever meet.

It is just the fear of being with someone forever. What if i mess up and ruin our forever.

In middle school i was addicted to hurting myself, and now i'm terrified of letting myself get hurt. I know you understand what addiction can be like. But Post-addiction can be very hard to maintain.

 

My organized brain-house is yours to come into,

it's only clean in the living room because i haven’t moved from my bed in 16 fucking years.

I'm scared of being with someone because last time i unlocked my bedroom everyone saw the mess inside. The boy took pictures and invited others over to stay.

So i’ve learned my lesson of showing my bedroom to people who might take it theatrically.

 

Your curiosity in me is something i’ve never seen before.

The way you sing pop songs without the music, so raw and real.

I like pop music for the first time.

It's a reminder of your steady heartbeat.