Words of Pain and Survival!

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I WRITE TO SPEAK OUT!

FEAR, Fear is what kept me quite for so long the reason why depression took over my boy like a virus. Sleepless nights. Waking up in a ocean of sweat thinking of what happened in the past, but I will not be quite any longer! 

Today I will speak of my pain and today you will listen!

I was that girl. The same shy girl who was in your class for years but you never spoke to. Observing with a deep fear. Fear of the judgment that would forever be imprinted in my mind. I was that same girl who you made fun of because I couldn't speak properly or meet your beauty requirements. The girl who you made cry everynight until the sun shined through the window drying the tears away with its heat the next morning. BUT NO, NOT ANYMORE, BECAUSE I AM STRONG AND IM A SURVIVER!

Today I will speak of my pain and today you will listen!

I was that girl. The same girl whose innocense was taken from her at an early age because of the impolse of one man. The same girl who became a woman in a night of pain. Bleeding inside and out while the devil pierced my body with every stroke. That girl who couldn't understand why, why he chose me to hurt? Screaming and crying standing my arms in the air hoping god would hear my plead. I was left shaking and ashamed and due to my silence the devil never received justice. BUT NO, NOT ANYMORE, BECAUSE I AM STRONG AND IM A SURVIVER!

Today I will speak of my pain and today you will listen!

I was that girl. That same girl who hate what she saw as she staired through a mirror. The same girl who wished she was invisible or dead. Inflicting pain into my flesh. Feeling numb. Using drugs so that I would forget everything that I seem to always remember. Killing myself slowly with every shot, every cut, every tear, every heartbreak. BUT NO, NOT ANYMORE, BECAUSE I AM STRONG AND IM A SURVIVER!

Today I spoke of my pain and today you have finally listened!

I am your friend, your sister, your daughter, your wife, your mother, your grandmother, your cousin, your antie, your niece, your neighbor and I am beautiful, intellegent, funny, proud, honest, loyal, and most of all I AM STRONG BECAUSE I SURVIVED! 

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