Words
You learn pretty early on that words are never enough
Love is a complicated emotion that when put from pen to paper
Loses it's meaning with each drop of ink
You see, the true essence of humanity is....
Words
Fill my head but like a thing that's on the tip of your tongue
You wish they were like the songs that you cannot get out of your mind
My d.a.d. sings in the car sometimes
I use to sing along, it was our bonding moment
But now, I can't bring myself to sing along
In fear that my words carry like scissors
Cutting the moment of child-like wonder
That I so rarely get to see.
I think it's because my Grandpa never told him he loved him
My Grandpa spells love out
I L.O.V.E. you
The letters L.O.V.E. come through your ears
Before they pierce your heart
Like a lukewarm reminder of what was said
You see, my d.a.d. made me laugh
Even when he wasn't funny
His hugs filled me with warmth
The words to describe my d.a.d. are......
Listen,
I want to say something....
Words don't ever tell the full story....
Why can't I laugh anymore
Why can't I fell anymore
Why can't I be a child
Text messages from a co-worker
Locked office doors
Yelling where there should be smiles
Threats where there should be embrace
I can't speak because I am afraid I'm right
I can't speak because I can never forgive
I can't speak because cheating is just a word
Words
Love is a weird word
Even when it is broken it is still called love
There is distinction of what is between love and hate
No middle ground by which to stand
It is like a lonely island
A child sinking or Swimming
In a world where growing up happens at 14
And you start to think
Maybe if I said something
Maybe if I spoke up
Then you let him sing
Because you don't know that your silence
Will soon by co-opted by animosity
Words can't describe what I feel
But silence had answered the unknown
And the child-like wonder is gone
Bike Lessons
Stories at bedtime
Junk food when mom is gone
Judge Judy
Because d.a.d. likes to laugh every once in a while
Brothers are gone now
So our family stands at three
Mom, d.a.d., and....
You can't categorize everything down to one word
What is family without the ever binding glue that is...
So
I let my silence continue after mends are made
I call my d.a.d. on weekends
But by the end, I struggle to find words to close
Words
L.O.V.E.
We spell it out because saying it
Leaves out the silence that
Constantly makes me feel....
Words
Can never show how you feel
So, why do I continue to spell it out
My d.a.d. made me laugh
My d.a.d. made me warm with embrace
He drank till the world closed in
When it all fell apart all I had was
H.A.T.E.
Like a phone call
When life ends
We have to tell that person how we feel
Love, hate
Words
That don't quite describe years of pain and silence
So on the end of all ends
I guess all I have to say to you, d.a.d.
is....
Words
The silence fills in the emptiness you once called
L.O.V.E.
Which was absent
When I poured the alcohol down the drain
Like a waterfall of sadness
That wasn't my tears
Because I knew that like words
Tears don't convey what I feel
The more they happen the less they mean
And so my silence is like
L.O.V.E.
Because I can't quite bring myself
To cry over what is no longer there
We spell it out so we don't have to say it
D.A.D.
A name that I once knew
A person that use to sing along
But I am not singing anymore
And my silence
Is just a reminder
Of a word that describes how I feel
And that word is.....