I avoid the paper and pen
I'm not quite sure why
I hurt in a way
Deeper than ever before
My heart aches
I just want to be free
But now I wonder
Am I holding the chains
Or are they holding me?

I'd like to be that girl
The one who dances
With the stars as partners
I want my smile
To make yours appear
But instead
I can't force mine
I can't laugh like they do
They call me a "joy"
I don't know why
I am a shadow of
What I want to be
A ghost of my past
A ghost of my future

Like anyone else
I have plans
They excite me
But then I wonder
I want to help others
When I can't help myself?
No, I can't
I should be locked away
My tears unheard
It's better that way