Why push
Why must I pushed
Why must I make all good things end
Why must I ran before it get beautiful
Why must I fear
Of what have not happen
Why am I so afraid
Why do I expect everybody to hurt me
Am I to damage to be love
Am I to much to deal with
Am I really that bad
Some reason I can’t sleep at night
I don’t feel love
I feel like the whole world pointing at me
Everybody laughing
Everybody pointing
Troubles coming
The storm is easing
My children is dying
I’m giving it my all
& still depression sneak up
It hit hard
I fall down
I cry
I wanna die
I wanna end it all
But then my daughter came to me
About her friend
& all I could do was cry
I had the same thoughts & couldn’t speak
I had the same thoughts but couldn’t explain
I had the same thoughts & didn’t even talk to her about it
I wanted to tell I understand what she going thru
But instead I just hold her & told her I love her
I only could hold my child while I can
Because I couldn’t believe children feel how I feel
I couldn’t believe how these days get darker
I see no body
Just black
No lights
No shine
No sunshine