When it was the darkest hour of night, you shined for me

And when I would hurt, you cared for me

But then you left...

And when it was dark and I waited for you to shine you didn't do it,

And when I would hurt, you weren't there and all that hurt never stopped

Because it creates who I am today..

But who am I ?

 

I gave you my heart and I trusted you,

Now that's a pretty special thing my friend,

But you took my heart and you played, played all these stupid games,

And yeah I know I messed up too, but I put my trust in you

 

But you took my heart and threw it in the freezer becuase when we were done,

My heart was as cold as ice and it was flowing through my veins 

And I was tryna stay the same,

But I couldn't

 

The world stopped looking me in my eyes and began looking into my heart,

And all they could see was a cold-hearted mad black man,

But it that who I am?

Look At Me!

Is that who you see?

 

You can help me because when I look in the mirror I dont know who I see,

Closest thing I can get to is a man tryna find himself,

A man tryna release all his pain,

But if only you were here to save me..

 

Well you can scratch that BS, I dont trust you with my heart anyways,

I dont trust anyone with it, that's why I do what I do,

Taking advantage of all these girls, 

But deep inside I know they dont deserve it,

Because I know how it feels, you put me through it

 

And when these girls get all that pain in their heart they're gonna end up just like you and me,

Whatever we are, 

Whatever you made me,

Cause' no doubt you changed me

 

And I dont know what you changed me into,

But I know when I have kids their gonna know who they are,

And their gonna ALWAYS know who they are,

But that's after I figure out who you made me

 

And sadly, you have spreaded a disease, 

To where people wont believe, 

In the good hearts that they see,

Have people running these streets like zombies tryna repair themselves,

Basically what I'm saying is, their gonna end up just like me

 

A zombie?

Is a zombie what I am?

Because I mean,

I am roaming these streets,

And im pacing so fast, I got my hands on my knees,

And I'm running into trees

But im staying on my feet, tryna find the new me

 

But its fine..

Because I got the Holy Spirit who promise to take care of me,

So I'll find out who I am and I'll be who I wanna be,

So fuck you and your childish shit,

Cause' your not who I'm gonna be

 

 

 

               -Deion Eyma