should i change who i am

to please others

or should i stay the same

should i pretend to be straight

to please my parents

or should i not

should i hide my flaws

or should i show them with pride

who am i

am i the person my parents want

or am i a disgrace

am i me

or am i someone else

am i the gay son who does not get treated right

or am i the son they adore

am i the student teachers hate

or am i the student teachers love

am i a happy un broken person

or am i the sad broken kid

am i the kid with hope

or am the kid who is hopeless

am i trash

or am i not

am i a ghost

am i alive

am i a nerd

or am i not

am i loved

or am i hated

who am i 

i no longer know who i am