We Don't Talk Anymore

Tue, 11/07/2017 - 20:13 -- Lizzz_M

We don’t talk anymore.

It’s really just that.

You left for a day,

Then you entirely went away

And we didn’t talk much anymore.

 

We didn’t talk almost at all.

We spent two years trying

To make one another a safe haven

Then you turned your back after

Graduation day, and you went away.

 

I wanted to talk,

But you had work

And it wore you down to your core

And all I could do

Was say “goodnight” and “I love you.”

 

I missed talking to you.

I did, really, I waited hours

To talk to you, but

I couldn’t help you were

Always exhausted from working there.

 

I gave up talking to you.

I was too tired of staying up

To the late A.M.s to only put you

To bed and repeat again and again.

I just started going to bed.

 

We didn’t hang out much anymore.

Our schedules stopped matching,

And events just weren’t gonna be happening.

So I decided I needed to start something new,

Something that didn’t involve you.

 

I made new friends.

I thought they would stay until the end

But I was wrong and they’re long gone

And I hope they never come back.

I wish I never did that.

 

You didn’t like my new friends.

Especially the boy and I found it funny,

But maybe I should’ve listened to you

Cause he wanted a honey from me

I wouldn’t let him receive.

 

We stopped talking for awhile then.

Cause I stopped being special, too,

So I figured you weren’t really loving me anymore

And it broke me to my core,

But that was fine.

 

I had 11 months of this “game”
We had made.

You were already gone before

Those words rang true,

And it stopped feeling like “I love you.”

 

You kept crying and crying.

You wouldn’t stop, and you begged me

To give you a second chance, but my love,

There’s something you’ve ditched for 11 months

And it was done.

 

I gave you back your things.

All the stuffed toys and hoodies,

And some of the CDs.

We cried a lot, but you tricked me

Into saying we could be.

 

I waited again, somewhat.

I waited and tried to keep us alive

Through a friendship first so I

Wouldn’t be so hurt and then it showed through

You weren’t going to prove “I love you.”

 

Then you stopped talking to me,

And I didn’t understand why.

Was your tears and pleading just some big lie?

Was it because you couldn’t look at me

Cause of what we couldn’t do?

Was it because you couldn’t say “I love you”?

 

I decided to keep my word

Instead of breaking first.

I kept texting you morning, noon, and night

Just to make sure you were alright.

I didn’t lie, you know.

 

I kept texting and texting

To make sure you drank water and ate,

That you made it to work and home safe.

You’d leave me on read and

We didn’t talk much anymore.

 

You wouldn’t talk to me anymore.

You sent people who had no business

To settle a rumor you feared.

Was I really that disgusting

That you could be that insincere?  

 

I gave up on you.

I finally did, and I can’t tell you

How much it hurt, too.

My friends hunted you down

To prove to you there wasn’t another

“I love you.”

 

We don’t talk anymore

And I fell in love with someone new

And honestly forgot about you.

You were a tool to help him and I survive

He was the reason I made it alive.

 

Him and I talk all the time,

And I finally feel like someone is mine.

He’s my world and the truth is

I’ve found someone who means

Way more than you.

 

You message me from time to time,

But you’re never on my mind.

You’re a wreck, a mess, horribly depressed,

But I am happy, alive, and all I have done

Without you is thrive.

 

I felt guilty

For being happy while you were not,

But like you said, old lover,

It’s not my fault

And I have another.

 

You messaged me again one night

To talk like friends almost

And it was quite alright.

You told me about your plan

To escape the world.

I told you mine,

And I’m sure it hurt.

 

We stopped talking again.

Just again and again

And I don’t crave to speak to you.

I really never want to see you.

I’m sorry that’s true.

 

I got accepted the other day

To the college I wanted

I’ve made it this far without

A single bit of help from you since

And I am full of pride.

 

You messaged me the other night

Wishing I’d go away and probably die.

You can’t take not getting over it

And that you can’t blame me

For pitying.

 

I changed my picture

So you’d get the hint

That there is no more you

And there is only

Him.

 

I don’t talk to you anymore.

You’re not worth my time and my life,

You chose to walk and go away.

So please, don’t pretend like

This was everything you had.

 

A boy told me once

That people change their minds,

But never overnight.

I’ve accepted you changed your mind

Over an 11 month time.

 

I’m happy with my life.

I’m in love with the stars and the moon again

And a boy the sweetest that can be.

May I tell you the truth once again?

I’m sure he’s the one for me.

Sorry, sweetie.

 

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