I used to think that waiting was going to kill me,
That one day it would just be too much to see the person I love in love with someone else.
So while I was waiting,
I tended to our friendship,
Helping however I could and making you laugh no matter how much work it took.
I soon discovered that I fell in love first with your laugh,
The way that it sounds as sweet as honey,
And how it makes me feel as if I was on top of the world.
Your smile made me feel as if I had won everything I ever wanted,
Yet I couldn’t win your love.
I spent hours making sure that you were okay,
And I couldn’t stand it when you weren’t.
When you were happy,
So was I.
And when you were sad,
I swear the entire world could feel it.
I have never been genuinely happy before this,
Watching you in a relationship with someone else,
Made me feel like a knife was stabbing me in the heart.
But I think it hurt more,
When it broke apart into pieces.
When for the first time since I met you,
That I wasn’t there to pick up the pieces
“I’m still here,
And I’m not going anywhere.”
Instead I had no idea that anything was going on,
And I heard about it hours after.
I told myself that I would always be there,
No matter the time,
No matter the cost.
The change that I felt like I wanted,
Came with so much pain.
I didn't think that I could take it,
Until you came into my life.
The change I was waiting for,