I sit here alone in the dark
staring out the window
counting fading stars
Waiting for dreams that will never come true
Waitig for promises to be pursued
Waiting for the never ending nightmares to stop
Waiting for my mind to fall silent.
But the moments never come
as I watch the moon become the sun
expelling the shadows of the night
and yet the loneliness of darkness lingers.
There is no comfort in the light
when all you have left is what you thought last night
when I lost myself in my head
and my heart stopped beating and shattered.
New eyes are opened and waiting
to see the good in the world
but watching as people kill out of greed
and see people dying from hate,
and anxiety and fear and sadness come to replace
the hopeful glow.
No, I don't trust the sun
and I don't trust the night.
I don't trust what I hear
or what lies in my sight.
So I sit here in silence
alone in the dark
looking out the window
counting the fading stars
Waiting for hope,
Waiting for love,
Waiting for change and peace.
Waiting for a silent mind
because I will find that everything is alright.