Waiting
ears rolling down my face
back hunched over from the pain
tired from the 8 hours of sleep i did not get
wishing and hoping for cahnge, yet i know that i am being insane
I know your no good but everytime i see your face pop up on my screen
happiness feels my eyes, while excitment feels my body
but everytime i press send and there is no answer
sorrow fill m soul
I used to think that you made me whole, but the fact of the matter is you put a whole in me
like a never ending nightmare that comes with you never ending lies that i catch you in everytime you open your mouth
when you open those lovely lips of your i want to die
ypu make everything my fault without even thinking
i get so worked up with all this energy i put into this loveless love that keeps on coming back
i want to walk away but everytime i see your face
life enters my world
but when i hear your voice i get so damaged im sick
with the tears in my eyes
the knot in my back
the sleep i long for
but when im with you i don't think about that
i think about the first time our eyes met
or those days you texted me everymornig making sure that i made it through the night safely
or December 15
the first time you said you loved me, taking a deep breath and saying i wanted to say that since kindergarten
in my heart i feel love but in my head i see destruction
as the tears roll down my face
i lie in bed and wait
wait for the sleep that will not come
with the pain that will not go away
wishing and hoping for a change
knowing that i have truly gone insane