I’m so scared 

Scared to love again

I’ve been alone for so long

I’ve built a wall that keeps me safe

I’m to worried to let the wall down 

To be vulnerable again

Is this anyway to live?

I ask this to myself everyday 

Is it better to be safe? 

Or to let someone in

possibly destroying you again?

Not being able to breath without them

Needing to see them or your day feels wasted 

I’m so lost in this battle 

Between safe & being vulnerable…