You open with your words but you don't show it within your actions
You Know that I forgave you so why you steady asking
I L-O-V-E Y-O-U
But the question remains anonymous because the pain you put me through
No point in frustrating over things you don't no and
No time to relate in feelings you don't show
Twelve years went by without a phone call or a visit
Never knew what was wrong til I realized it was mommy I was missing
I've done everything to leave memories where they lie
but its a brutal battle that I'm fighting
and my heart is racing from the laps I keep repeating
No telling whether the pain will be leaving
I understand you love the taste of a crack pipe but I wonder if you love me
Cause reminiscing on the times you wasn't there I don't know what to believe
I'm breaking through barriers hoping it would lead to a happy ending
Knowing it won't cause you wasn't there in the beginning
"Only if you was there..." keeps running through my mind
But I accept the past and leave pain behind
But somehow my heart is still vacant
Wondering if the emptiness I took for granted was mistaken
Even though the void is still within
I realized that the pain is a good friend
Cause what don't kill me make me stronger
and my strength will last much longer
But I do wish you were there for me
and this desire is nothing but an enemy
Cause it causes more pain
and your heart remains vacant so looking for love will leave me in shame