unspecific
i find english
to be a painfully unspecific language
for example,
i can't say i love you
because that doesn't say everything
i need a way to say that i adore your smile and your grimace
and the way your hair sticks up in a way that refuses to be smoothed down
and i love the way your face crinkles up when you laugh
i think you're beautiful
but i wish that the word communicated more than just your figure
i wish it went past your hair that makes you look gorgeous when styled in any manner
because you are so very attractive
i wish it went beyond your entrancing eyes that i could stare into all day
with their fascinating hues that very with the time of day
i wish beautiful could explain
how you make me feel
how my heart leaps when i see you
how your love for others is hidden under your rough exterior
but the soft and the rough are equally fascinating
and i wish
that i could tell you how i feel
but it's so very difficult
to put that all in a sentence that you can hear
not only because english is such an unspecific language
but also it get stuck in my mouth
the words come out in tumbles and knots
that rarely convey what i mean
that convey the love and the whirlwind of thoughts that run through around and out of my mind
all about you
you with your lovely lovely self
i sigh
stupid
unspecific language