"marry someone who can give you what you want"
They say jokingly, but it stays on my mind.
"Why are you so uptight, live a little more."
My parents fled for me, and looked back one last time.
The world is different when it seems like they're against us
It's almost scary to go out and live in existence
But even then, it wouldn't stop me,
especially in a time like this
In a time of broken, immigrant children
who can't find a way out of this ruthless mess.
I was brought to a country where I thought
everything was "so much better."
But the older I get, I just keep getting bitter.
I continue to feel like I'm stuck between
two worlds that don't want me.
Or maybe I'm "being dumb
and looking for some sort of 'pity' party."
It's the envy that I have for my cousins
that get to enjoy the sun that feels so right
Where I live in constant hope
that I will go back, and pray for it at night
I feel like I'm constantly battling anger
and frustration from what I see on the news.
But I'm definitely more of a lover not a fighter,
However, maybe it's worth the bruise.
I wrote a song after the rescinding of DACA
in a Republican state which was nervewrecking.
But the amount of support I got on the daily
was definitely the biggest blessing.
Singing for a Families Belong Together Rally
was such an honor to do, even to this day.
Now I don't feel as scared anymore
and know I'm not some moldable piece of clay.
"We are composers," as I turn around at
the rally to see a smiling Carole King
I laughed and agreed but knew I was also
a bilingual, undocumented lover with big dreams.