i cant really tell you how i feel ,without you miss understanding

but i wish i could express to you

all the things you deserve to know

like how i hate when your angery

or how i love when your smiling 

how id want to be the only person to help make you feel better 

how i feel when i cant make you laugh or joke around like others can

i wish you knew how

different i feel when you say things like im to nice

or to open

i wish you knew how angery i feel knowing that who i am is someone that cant be exactly

who your looking for

i love you ,and i never thought i would

i care about you so much ,it hurts to see you in any type

of pain or irritation.

i want you all to myself selfishly 

so my goal for you is to always try to be the one lighting your dark paths

but when i feel like im failing .or like im not enough

then how ,how am i supposed to be that for you.

and why dont you notice it

how can you be so blind to my pain to

so arrorant towards the things that obiviously

bother me

sometimes ,the little things that i ask about or waht to do with you

mean more to me

than the opposing reality you think of

i wonder, if youve ever noticed 

how all i want is your reinsurance ,that im the only one

i want to be claimed and to let it be known that yours

sometimes ,i feel like your keeping me kept secret from

all thoses on your end ,who should know who i am

sometimes i feel like 

maybe your a shamed of me, or maybe theres someone else who you dont want to let know about me

i dont know ,if what your telling me when i ask is your honesty

or your confliction

im trying to trust you

because trustings hard to do

and if something that can be said so simple 

is hard to maintain, then it must be worth 

doing, but like ive said many times before

i already came with a truck load of  emotional issues

and shards of a broken heart

and its your job to help me mend and heal it

but how can you help me

when im trying to help you

i dont know.... i just dont know,