Yesterday I may have loved you

You made me so happy

My light came from the spotlight you put on me 

I was somebody’s everything

Somebody actually wanted me to stay

You fucked me up!

I can’t handle that kind of effort

It was unbelievable 

But love made me sink

I believed

Today I contemplate my choice to let you love me

I want every piece of my effort back!

Throw the money in for times sake

You don’t owe me anything

But I can’t help but feel robbed

Even after prayer 

The more empty time I have to think

Some days I’m merciful
I see my fault

Some days I’m plagued with happy memories of us

It opens my heart 

And I find myself breathing hope

Yet, on the other side of forgiveness

I remember…I’m conscious

I ride the emotions of this

EVERY SINGLE DAY

I’m human

I’m a Woman

I get angry

And that’s what holds me

The betrayal

The disappointment 

The bitches that you’re still texting 

Sharing the spotlight that you held on me

The hardest part is remaining poised

Remaining a respectful lady

When lately, I don’t feel so respectful

I wanna tell you how unworthy you are of me

How much you were ‘a piece of man’ instead of the full man I need

How cowardly you were in the end

And how I wish you would’ve never looked my way

Wish you would’ve just left me alone

Your biggest mistake was interrupting a woman who has her shit together

Knows what she wants

You can never match me

And I lie all the time cause it sounds good

Much like all the promises you told me

Am I still supposed to believe in marriage between you and I?

I’ll do my best to refrain 

Return to the woman who cared less if she got married,

If she had children

Just ambitious and full of potential 

Just me

My goals and deadlines and personal dreams

I take this so personal

You took my dreams and replaced them with “ours”

You took my time

My precious time

The time Neo told me to never waste

This was awful timing

Timing that never would have existed if you would’ve just graduated on time