The True, Genuine & Indubitable Me.

Location

Dutch Harbor
88 Salmon Way Aleutian Chain
United States
53° 52' 45.2316" N, 166° 33' 9.036" W

The True Me.

The Genuine Me.

The Indubitable Me.

The Me that no one saw.

Was hidden.

Why?

 

I wanted people to see my:

Strength,

Courage,

Will,

Intelligence, 

And nothing more at first glance.

So the Me that was:

Shy,

Nervous,

Afraid,

And,

Insecure.

Would stay

Unexposed.

 

I did not want others to view Me as

Weak.

 

During times of melancholy,

I dissembled the pain from others by a

Smile.

 

Everyone saw a happy person…

They never saw the struggles.

No one saw the misery.

I told myself

“Things will get better.”

No matter what happened.

I knew.

 

The depression was the shadow,

Suppressing the Me

Who wanted to be

Happy.

It prevented my smile from being

Meaningful.

It was just a way to hide.

The shadow pushed Me down

And down,

To where I was almost conquered.

 

I stopped it by fighting back.

I stopped letting what oppressed Me

Do as it pleased.

I defeated the oppression.

Although I did not leave the battle

Without scars.

 

The scars helped Me become:

Stronger, 

Braver,

and 

Wiser. 

 

Even so,

I still cower from letting people know

How I acquired these scars. 

I am afraid to let them know

What I have felt.

What I have seen. 

I am afraid they will feel 

Pity.

 

That is what is preventing the

True

Genuine

And

Indubitable

Me

From freedom.

 

The True Me,

Wants no more

Suffering.  

 

The Genuine Me

Wants kindness for

Everyone.

 

The Indubitable Me,

Wants to Smile with

Happiness.

 

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