I don't want to leave you

I don't want to stay

I want to believe you

The things that you say

But I know I can't trust you

At least not right now

I know what I must do

Just don't know quite how

I wish things weren't like this

That all stayed the same

Don't know how to fight this

This guilt and this shame

How I long to be near you

Yet also apart

How I tremble and fear you

Yet open my heart

But once I have offered

My deepest of feelings

You all seem like scoffers

And leave my heart reeling

I wish I could leave you

Wish I wanted to stay

I mostly believe you

But I can't trust you today ~