today

i feel quiet

i feel small

and helpless

and afraid

today i feel like hiding

i do not want to leave my house

i do not want to see people

i feel like i mean nothing

i feel like you do not want me right now

you do not want to be around me

you do not like me

today i feel worthless

 

tomorrow

i am not sure if i will feel the same

if i will feel nothingness

maybe i will

and i will not answer your texts

and i will not notice your calls

because i do not mean enough

i do not have a say

of my worth

but maybe

i will not feel the same

maybe

i will dance in my kitchen

and answer your texts

and be cheerful

but for now

i am quiet

i am small

i am nothing