Sitting in the chair at home,

You in the bedroom,

Wanting to be alone. 

Me waiting for that spark to bloom. 

 

I can’t take this silence anymore.

I can’t do this pain and not knowing how to get US back. 

I stare at the door willing myself to stay, but the will to leave is so much stronger than that door. 

I leave, but to see if you notice, I look back. 

 

You don’t notice I’m gone.

It hurts, but I keep walking, keep moving. 

Probably too wrapped up in your song. 

It just feels like a game - but we’re both losing. 

 

I get in the car and drive. 

No destination.

Holding back the tears - in that, I thrive. 

I suppose I’m looking for reformation. 

 

I end up in the place it all began. 

Trying so hard to remember why I fell so hard. 

Where I first held your hand. 

God I miss that part. 

 

The part of us that used to against the world. 

Now it seems it’s the world against us. 

I miss the part of us where our stomachs swirled

When we walked in the room to see each other. That us. 

 

I miss the way things used to be. 

The bad days, by far, outweigh the good. 

It used to be just you and me. 

I want to start over - I wish we could. 

 

Maybe we can find our way back to each other. Maybe we won’t. 

All I know is that I want us to be better, to get better. 

For ourselves, for each other. We’re in the same boat. 

 

We are sailing together through this life,

Through all these storms,

As husband and wife. 

We can take on whatever forms. 

 

By a thread, we’re hanging on 

But days will get brighter. 

We just need to fix our bond. 

Sew it a little tighter.