A Thousand Words

All the smiles

all the laughs

All the good times you have together

Each one of them lasts

 

In my memory

Downloaded from a screen

and it hurts so much to see them

but you don't hear me scream

 

Out in anger

Silent, but still there

Senseless words rushing from my mouth

out of its evil lair

 

Because a picture is worth 

a thosuand words

Those words tell the story 

of how much it hurts

 

I'm forced to live a tragedy every single day

and unfortunately, it will never go away

 

It's not like you can enter the digital world

Trillions of pictures go out every day

but the weirdest part is, 

even though I can't stand to look at these photos

I can't seem to look away

 

Clearly, there's a connection

Clearly, there's chemistry

I would be stupid

if I were to say I disagree

 

Because your pictures are

worth a thousand words

Those words, especially, tell the story

of how much it hurts

 

I'm forced to live a tragedy every single day

it's like I'm an actor in a play

except for me, unfortunately,

it will never go away

 

I told myself

to be happy

I reminded myself

you're my best friend

I forced myself

to fake a smile, even if it hurt,

because the only thing I've learned

 

From your happiness,

I've developed a fear

I never knew someone else's grin

could be my tear

 

These pictures have been burned into my brain

like a brand, like a stain

reminding me of the pain

 

Because your pictures are worth

a thousand words

And I think those words

might just be the death of me

This poem is about: 
Me

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