Dearest seven year old thoughts,
but it is not your fault.
The false words that teachers forcefully feed-
words that they do not even believe!
The mountain path that your parents shape-
which is not as smooth as they say.
They are all a virus that your mind could not detect
coming from left and right
your young impressive mind couldn’t fight.
As a seven year old, you believed them
“everything is possible”
was the pushing factor in the back of your mind.
As a simple minded seven year old, you believed them
the saying “cheaters never win”
just seemed right.
As a naïve seven year old,you believed them
“bad things only happen to bad people”
and you’re not one.
As a seven year old, who saw the world with so much light,
you believed them
too simple minded,
you never had a chance.
But let me tell you my dearest seven year old thoughts,
those viruses will be deadly
when you find out that life is not the way you thought
you will shape your life on the assumption that everything is possible
then senior year will come
and you’ll be top of the class,
thinking you’re doing great,
until you turn around and see a path
where no one is whispering “it’s going to be okay."
You’ll see those who didn’t try
live their dreams because they have the greens.
The path your parents shaped is rocky as hell
and the top is so high
you can’t even tell if it’s actually there
Suddenly, you’ll be walking home from your job,
you can’t afford a car,
a shadow will interrupt leaving your senses numb
to where you can only feel the cold floor
as they walk away with everything you've worked for.
Throbbing on the floor you’ll remember
the lessons about merit that your favorite teacher preached,
when you were seven years old
and you’ll realize how
your seven year old dreams
the girl whose seven year old dreams ruined her life.