Can't picture my life without you

But am I what you need right now?

Don't want to get in the way

Of your moving on.

 I know i'm always asking you

If im doing something wrong.

I try to refrain.

Instead I just listen to my song.

 

I'm really bad at this

Being a girlfriend

I know i'm bad at this

Helping with trauma and shit

 

I'm only bad at this

Because I haven't dealt with my own
How the hell can I help the people I love

When sometimes, I feel so alone.

Everything weighing me down

Your words echo in my head

Like it's the only sound

 

Some things you say

They cut me deep

I overthink them

Asking myself 

What do they mean?

 

Putting the blame on myself

But i need to brush it off

Because I was not raised to be weak.

Need to be strong

No matter what it may be

Can't give up now

It's only been 2 weeks.

But i can't let this escape

Can't let it free

Even if it is weighing me down

I need you

And i will always love you

Even if it kills me.