They Say They Know
They say they know depression
Say that it can be fixed with pills and medication
Say it's a disease that's has a simple scientific cure
But depression is just letting the truth sink in
That everyone will die
That I don't matter
I can't make a change
People say they know me
They know my forced smile
They know my fake kindness
But they don't know me
They don't know what a struggle it is to wake up
To function
To be "the girl your are"
My mom says she knows me
She knows my fake "I love you"
She know my forced kisses
But she doesn't know me
She doesn't know the pain I feel when she screams at me
The pain I feel when I hug her
The pain I feel when she forces me to smile
To be the girls she thinks I am
They all think I am the perfect girl
Always happy
Volunteer Work
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Free Hugs
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Cheery smiles
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I am not the girl you know
Look at me and look at me closely
You will see the sadness in my eyes when I talk
The hatred in my eyes when I kiss you
The happiness in my eyes when I am in pain