"kaylin" they say
"she" they say
"girl" they call me
for as long as i can remember i
pretending, posturing, deceiving, decaying decoy from the inside out, the girlchild
that is me.
cracks in the surface of my world painted over with blush and eyeshadow.
fling myself from cliffs and land tattered,
get up and run towards the next,
knowing i won't fly.
shattered broken girlhood, i drop it from my hands
as i learn the word
it is a moment of shift.
upheaval uprising in silence and steady rightness and stillness as the world
leap from the cliffs and float gently down,
colors exploding from the ground.
i am a giant, a colossus, a warrior coming into his right.
"niko" i say
"he" i say
"nonbinary" i call myself
they call me